I had morning sickness and quit smoking. I am pregnant with baby number 4. My DP switched to an ecig but I left my alone.
I got more and more emotional and unable to hold myself together as the weeks went on. And after a bad couple of days I went to visit a friend who listened to my problems and it is a poor excuse but I felt too anxious to drive home so had a cigarette. I hadn't even been thinking of smoking much until that moment.
I came home and ended up over a few days finishing the addictive free tobacco we had left in the cupboard and then bought a new ecig which never hit the spot.
My dad is staying in my spare room and smokes and i kept pinching tobacco and then he started leaving me bits of tobacco even after I asked him to keep it in his room away from me. It lasted a day. Emotionally I have felt much better.
The hardest bits for me are being stuck at home bored a lot. And I can't even see how I will get through day 1.
I did a pagan quit smoking spell a while ago. I have listened to hypnotherapy on youtube for willpower. I do yoga and meditate but with 3 kids and my partner working shifts I don't have enough time for myself to do it. Though I think it would help a lot. I don't eat as well when I smoke.
I am disappointed with myself. I am feeling sick again and emotional when I try and get through just the most part of the day. Everyday night I try to visualise myself waking up, eating breakfast and not smoking but every morning I reach for a cup of tea and pinch some tobacco from my dad before he goes to work. I smoke my ecig for the rest of the day and end up smoking tobacco again.
I have been referred to speak to someone at the stop smoking clinic but I don't feel confident about quitting. I just wanted to rant about my frustration more than anything.