Trying to decide whether its a need or a *would like*.
Lived a long long time alone so deep down I know I can cope without the need for man in life and always borrowed someone elses should I need a manly thing doing - like putting up shelves (not something I like doing lol).
I keep getting this yearning. I see on tv, or out about, these old couples.. ones that have been together for an awful long time and they are probably well past the heavy intimacy part of their relationships, but they are like two gloves that fit. They know each other inside out, finish sentences, and they look after each other and go about their business like two well oiled wheels working together.
Sadly am a bit too old now to even dream of such a long term prospect like those I see on tv, but its something I would like as I grow older.
I was really down one day and someone on here messaged me and I poured it all out to him and I felt so upset that because I have very little libido due to meds that I didnt think any man would ever want me again and he gave me a male perspective and told me that not all men at around my age want a heavy sexual relationship and it gave me a little hope and lifted my heavy heart.
I also got talking to someone and I kinda quite liked him and he even made me smile and gave me a wee flutter, not something I had felt in a long long time and I got a little excited at a possible prospect - until a sexual connotation and my flutter flopped it just put me off.. why cant men talk to me without such mentions??
I am a good cook, I care, I like to please, I am faithful, honest, genuine, loyal etc etc etc perhaps a bit old fashioned and would just like to meet someone who wants to live out the rest of their days in a happy and simple way.. life is getting harder as I get older and I think sometimes the battle is best fought in pairs..
19 years next month since I left my husband.. a few ships and encounters in that time.. but nothing stuck..
I dont want to die never having known what its like to feel truly loved ..........
Edited to say that this thread did not type out as I had planned in my head!!