Right.....I'm getting very stressed at the moment and i'm looking for ways/ideas to help.
Firstly, a bit of background......I used to be a forestor/tree surgeon. I love anything to do with trees and the outdoors. But over 20 yrs ago a bust my shoulder badly. It kept on dislocating and I had an op to rebuild and tie it in place. I kept on working after the op and eventually the shoulder dislocated again. I was told to give up the heavy work or that I would need a further op which would mean I would lose most of my shoulder mobility. I carried on working on silly amounts of painkillers until I could work no more. I moved in to an office job - not easy as no one would employ me saying I wanted to work outdoors - true, but I have a mortgage to pay.
The only job that I could find was working in insurance travel claims. I hated it but it paid the bills for a few years. Then I had enough of being abuse on the phone, so I found another job in insurance working for a broker. I hate it. i hate insurance. I hate the way insurance companies deal with people.......but it's what is putting food on my table and keeping a roof over my head.......and it's not all that well paid......I'm not working in the city and don't have bonuses, just working for a little provintial broker.
So there's my problem. I can't find other work at the moment - there's nothing around and because I have 10 years insurance on my CV, any agency will only put me forward for insurance jobs. Hating the industry you work in is not a good feeling. I try and stay positive and drag myself to work everyday, but it feels like it is eating my soul. People are leaving and not being replaced, the workload is increasing and I am not sure how to cope anymore.
In addition, my boy has a medical condition. Without going in to detail on an open forum, this means that I have to help him with personal care stuff every evening for at least an hour. My missus is great and would love to help more with this, but my boy is growing up and only really wants his Dad to do this stuff - which is understandable and I respect. Because of the medical stuff, we have a strict routine for mealtimes, food eaten, medical stuff etc so we don't get out in the evenings - I reckon about 5 times in the last 10 years!
Everything is getting on top of me - I know I am more grumpy than I used to be and I don't want to be. Life has dealt us a few duff cards, but I know I shouldn't complain - there are people worse off than me. I just need some ways of coping with the stress. Any ideas would be gratefully received - you dn't know how gratefully;)
I do a bit of wood burning in the evenings to try and switch off from things, and keep in touch with something more natural. But I feel that I am missing something, that there is some better way to deal with the stress and allow me (and also my family) to cope better.
I walk in the woods helps clear my mind - but in the whole working/evening stuff routine, there is rarely time for that luxury.
So I'm asking for your help. Please, any ideas would be very gratefully received.
That was a bit of a rant wasn't it.....sorry;)