I am close to my girlfriend but i am friends with her at the moment as she is going a bit weird, i am there for her and i think and hope this is a wobble, possibly brought on by a number of events, we went through a termination i think which was two months ago, we held each other and i tried my best as did she to carry on as normal.
I live an hour away and cant always see her all the time and recently i did feel we were completely different people with different opinions on life etc, so i guess i was building up walls between me and her, and i think to be fair i was becoming a bit of an a hole, ie id turn up we would have sex then id stop or go to work, then i took to sleeping on her couch when i stopped at hers, she works as a receptionists but hasnt been in this week.
This is when the weird stuff started, she began by (she has to go to library or her friends to get internet access)
so i come home to find she s written fek off you fekker on my posts or points of interests in the coments section, she then started on her brothers girlfriend and her brother her boss her brothers girlfriends boss, on fb,
I asked whats going on she said that all these questions kept racing up from us all all a bit nasty, so she replied,
then she started texting me, one said shes on radio 1 i am on radio 2 when i rang her she said the radio had been weird today like everything has a meaning,
I stopped at hers last night and got her to talk and tried my best to councell her, i talked calmly and she seemed to calm down, she wanted me to come to bed with her i refused i said id sleep on the couch but she pleaded so i went up, i slept ie kept the bo sex rule at the moment, she tried but i didnt want to mess her head up and for me it just seems wrong to have sex with someone whos just a bit ill at the moment. She calmed down again, but then checked her dog for an ear infection three times through the night including walking the dog in her dressing gown at three in the morning four in the morning and 7, then i said let the dog up stairs so she did, the dog tried to bite me on the bed at one point and she came up with a theory that the dog was protecting her because of my un sure ness of wanting her, and it was like the dog was her dad.
now she told me the other night she had ralked to her dad ( who died when she was young,)
I ve gone out with my gf for 6 months and this has happened i guess this week and i hope its just a wobble, as she hasnt had a period for i think she said 4 months due to the termination i think,
I hope i did nt trigger all this somehow, I really care for her i really do i want to be friends and be close and if i can love her.
today i got her to talk for 5 or 6 hours just to get stuff out she definatly calmed down she seems a lot better.
her brothers girlfriend she seemed to have a lot of hate for, for taking her brother away from her, and quite a lot of other people like a friend her mum a bit, i calmed her down and said you cant blame them etc and your ok and reasured her shes not going nutd when she asked me i just said your just a bit poorly but youl het beeter and everything will be all right.
hears the triggers i think/
Losing her dad young,
hitting 30 for some strange reason,
me not opening up to her by saying back to her i love her when she poured her heart to me,
she always has had weird tendancies, i didnt notice till now,
her head sways when any music comes on,
she has defo OC tendancies, ie remotes for tv have to be near tv even when its on!
house immaculate, everything in exactly the right place,
she gets up every morning at 7 with radio on full blast on radio 2 every morning,
goes to bed at 9 every night switches her phone off then thats it.
brushes her hair before we have sex, which is a bit odd.
I never anylised her or let on i was doing so but you cant help doing it on weird stuff or sort of ingrown paterns that occour,
now i altered the radio some mornings and she wasnt happy i said do you fancy a bit of radio 4 i sort of did things differantly and i hope i did nt tip her world upside down
outside work i am caotic sometimes lazy on a sunday maybee that just baked her noodle,
I am off to see her again tomorow and she does seem a lot better
I rang her tonight at about 8 and she seems a lot better she went out with her mum, and she then announced that shes ok without me kind of shut me out, i said i would likr to stop over again tonight to help but she said shes fine so i duly stopped at mine to keep her sane,
I am off over tomorow i feel a care a love i have never felt before but its borderline cracking me up a bit, but i am being strong just to get her through it all.
hears the likey hood
late late peroid causing a kind of mental state, and to be fair this strange behavior stated a week after her period had started or ended i think,
Seasonal mood thingy,
bi polar possibly,
Obessive compulsive, ie she tried to arrange her brothers and my life and its beyond her control,
and i hope lastly it is nt schizofrenia.
that really scares me,
I keep reasuring her that i and her family are there for her i v et\lked to her brother he s off for a cuppa tomorow and she s going for councilling nect week, but her brothers boyfriend thinks she should see a schytrist,
just anyone with advice or simular problems or been through dark stuff like this woud help.
thankyou, i hope you can see i doing all i can and i hope i havent caused this i have always been as honest and caring as i can but not enough in recent weeks.