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Because to hurt yourself may not seem bad to at the time, as you feel that low
hmm...It used to be the case that I self harmed when I felt really low but it doesn't feel like that anymore. I use it to release tention and that can be both happy and sad kinds of emotional tention...but I'm not usually feeling low when it happens..not what I'd describe as low anyway. I think maybe I'm just addicted to it.
Quote from littlesausage
.. but imagine how ur friends and family would feel if they knew u were hurting so badly u were taking a blade to yourself? how would u feel if one of ur friends were doing that to themselves?
Some of my family and friends are aware that I have self harmed..I dont think all are aware that I still do. and I know how upset it made them ...I dont want to cause anyone any pain..which is why I hide it as best I can. I also have had friends that self harmed much more than I have...and I fel awful for them and desperate to do something to help.
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its hard to get back that love for yourself to not want to hurt yourself once you start and it can take you to places that are hard to come back out of ... I have scars on my body and I look back on those times as dark and lonely, I never wanna go back to that part of myself again .. i recently got so sad i cut my thigh with a pair of nail scissors and it has scarred me i think .. just that action, not the feeling behind it brought me down for weeks, more than i could have comprehended at all, it is an action that has emotional scars to bear let alone the physical ones, be careful its not a safe release, whacking urself with a pillow is more safe
*hugs* I know what you mean about it having emotional scars to bear ..but I think the emotional scars would exist even if th physical ones didn't. Though i suppose the physical scars dont let you forget.. each of my scars has a story.
As for the hitting self with the pillow thing I dont find it works well for me. I've taken to pressing frozen things against the area of skin that i most want to hurt. Or running very cold water over that area of my body...or just getting straight into a ice cold bath..all very helpful things...oh and drawing mandalas has been helpful too:). Thought I'd share those things incase it was useful to anyone. I cant wait to get into the sea tomorrow..I think that'll do wonders for me too.
I am trying to stop..am working on reducing the urges and looking at the roots of the urges... this thread as been helpful to me
Much love xXxXxXx:heart: