Yesterday I bit the bullet, phone my doctor and told him I wanted to come off my meds. I have to do it gradually over a few months.
I am on quite high doses of Amytriptyline and Citalopram. The amytriptyline is an anti-depressant but I take it to help with the pain caused by my fibromyalgia and to help me sleep. The citalopram is an antidepressant.
I will never be completely free from them, in the winter my SAD is so bad that I could not survive without meds but I want to manage the summers without.
The main reason I want to stop taking them is that I feel numb (mentally), I don't cry and sometimes I feel that I need to. The meds take away the highs and lows that life brings. I feel like I am living in a bubble.
I'm terrified!! Its going to be a challenge and a half, I have depended on medication for so long, I am scared that I won't cope without it but this is something I have to do. I barely sleep as it is so my doc agreed that a bedtime spliff will help me get through that, I'm cutting down my smoking to just that.
Has anyone else have any experiences of coming off medication like this?
wish me luck